Re: he doesn’t care
the day i was leaving, i told him i’d joined a Chat forum to discuss with people coz i was going nuts …i am too private of a person in real life to talk to friends about my personal matters
he said why’ve u done that when im here. i said you’re not there for me when i need you. you dont have enough time for me. he’s like okay i’m coming online to talk to you.
when he did come online, we started fighting again. coz i was like if his dad and my dad decide we should get married soon we should get married in like 2-3 months and he’s like well that’s too short notice it should be 5-6 months. that made me upset and offended so i signed off
after that i just got so upset that i told my dad (im very close to my dad and he’s like a very good and understanding friend) that once i come back from my trip i want to meet the other rishta… dad was like ok.
i called him up and told him that i’d told my dad that. he went nuts. hung up on the phone on me and put it off. and gave me like 1 million tanay
i told him look i CANNOT wait for u forever why dont u get over with this soon so i can lead a freakin NORMAL life
he said what IS your problem. my dad will talk to your dad. your dad can say that you guys want the marriage soon. if my dad agrees thats cool and if not then we’ll see but just RELAX
i was like what do you mean by “we’ll see” … ???
i was like i Cannot Relax…i just cannot Relax about this anymore… CAN NOT
he’s like fine then go find someone else b/c i cant do anything else so either do what i want or go away
and he shut his phone off saying Don’t call me
and then…as usual…i went insane when he wasn’t picking up his phone… 
i told my dad to not do anything yet about the other rishta and just talk to his dad
i texted him and said if he wants to see me off for my trip (which earlier he said he wants to), i’ll meet him at so and so location and he can take me to the airport. he said ok i’ll be there. so he was there. he was sweet to me on the way to the airport except i asked him to stop at the bank which he did not and then he apologised later. i was mad at him for that and was almost going to leave without saying bye, but just when i was about to hand my ticket to the security guard i turned back and talked to him normally
he was sweet to me at that time. and he said he’s gonna miss me a lot. he ran to the shops to get something i needed as well
i dunno…i know he loves me. its just, he wants things to be his way and he wants me to just be patient and deal with it and wait till he needs me to wait and take his own sweet time 
he thinks i should just deal with the wait
which is like getting too difficult for me
ive realised ive got no choice coz i just cannot handle not talking to him or not being with him. i cant deal with it at all