Re: he doesn't care
As X2 said earlier, though you might not be lying, you see everything from your own perspective. From your post, I'd say that you're obsessed with him and he doesn't reciprocate that same obsession. That doesn't necessarily mean that he doesn't care.
when we fight, i am always the one to call back
How long does that take? A couple of hours? A couple of days?
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he does whatever he wants yet i am always okay with it
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Such as?
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i've lost my backbone to stand up for anything or draw any line
i give in to everything he asks of me
but he can easily say NO to me
i've lost half my weight in the years we've been going out, i've become a skeleton
i can't get proper sleep at night
but he eats and sleeps well
yet....i can't say GOODBYE...
my parents have other proposals lined up for
i just feel committed to him though
but i am destroying myself
what am i doing wrong?
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This again I would attribute to your being obsessed with him and him not reciprocating that obsession. That is unhealthy. I do however understand your wanting to get married quickly. I haven't heard his side of the story, but from knowing friends stories, there may actually be something that is holding him up on his parents side. Maybe he thinks he just cannot do anything about it at the moment and hearing you complain about the same thing isn't really going to help him with anything.
For the record, I agree that this constant delaying of marriage plans or at least a response on the topic is unfair to you. On your side, what I would suggest keeping your options open. If, due to his delays/indecisiveness you decide to marry someone else, he really couldn't blame you.