having really hard and painful life .

Do you know what a wazifa does? A wazifa, dua, etc (IMHO) appeals to Allah swt to give you strength to get through something. It doesnt solve the problem necessarily, that is upto you. He gives you the tools you need but you have to do the rest.

You wont be able to get through this if you keep asking him questions about his behaviour. He knows he is upsetting you, he isnt blind. So far, have any of your questions given you answers? No. So, change your method. Give him something to worry about. Stop being his toy, stop crying, stop waiting for him to change, stop thinking your life depends on him, etc. It doesnt. Women are going to the moon and you're crying over a guy?

Do you have friends? Do you have family? Where are they? Cant you get a job? Go to school? Volunteer somewhere?