Re: having really hard and painful life .
omgosh im so sorry to hear all that. You will definately be in all my duas!!
PSsquare is right. If ur home all day looking over ur husband hes not going to have the same respect for u as he would if u were working at the same time.You need to have ur own time and space. Dont make ur life go around him.
inshallah everythign will be ok.
please dont cry...its gonna make u feel worse. Cheer up..i know its hard trust me i have close family relatives who kinda went thru a similar situation. Although, it seems liek ur lifes hell right now. its really not thank Allah for not putting you thru a more intense situation.
pray 2 rakat salatul hajjat at night and cry to Allah tell him to help you fix this situation. He is the one to make relationships Inshallah hes gonna help you save your marriage as well.
good luck and please try not to cry. Its going to make u feel worse