Re: HATE to admit but i am still in love with a married man
You can find other guys that are well-respected, pray and follow their faith, won’t take advantage of you…and are single. His wife has started to keep you at a distance and if this doesn’t make you feel ashamed…then that means you don’t value her friendship. Knock it off, OP. Stop focusing on his faith and praying and think about your own faith and your own self-respect which you’re losing. The fact that his wife has started distancing herself from you shows that she’s lost respect for you. And if she blabs about your behavior to other mutual friends, they will lose respect for you. And maybe it’s only a matter of time before she starts pressuring her husband to stay away from you at work as well. And if he starts avoiding you too, then you’ll feel worse…because it’ll send home a clearer message that he doesn’t want to marry you.
A married guy who senses your interest and avoids you …is better than the married guy who knows of your interest and might be socializing with you for an ego boost. If he is from the latter category, then maybe you’ve placed him on a pedestal. Don’t be his ego boost; move on.
That sounds like the childish argument of “I found the toy first, so it’s mine.” It doesn’t matter that you befriended him way before his wife entered the scene. That does not give you the right to carry on in an intimate manner with a married man. If he was interested enough, he would have attempted marrying you before marrying his wife. He did not do that, nor does he currently show any inclination toward taking on a 2nd wife. So, you’re stuck in limbo where you’re putting your life on hold.