Re: HATE to admit but i am still in love with a married man
** Nah. You don’t love him; you only love yourself. If you truly loved him, you’d respect his marriage since he’s told you he won’t hurt his wife. If you truly respected his feelings, you’d stop with your chichori harkatain of sending him flowers and giving him hints when by your admission he just brushes them off. You put your own feelings and desires before his and that’s why you persist with your behavior. You claim to be friends with his wife, but you don’t even know how to be a good friend to her cuz you put yourself first. Where does God and your faith and your conscience and your self-respect fit into this? Maybe all these things have also taken a backseat to your obsession which you insist is love. The guy is wrong too. He should keep a distance from you; he needs a reminder of the admonition to “lower his gaze.” Maybe it’s an ego boost for him to continue socializing with you unnecessarily even after brushing off your hints. He hasn’t verbally expressed a romantic interest and he brushes off your passes. I could understand if there was a inconsistency between his words and actions, but they both seem to be on the same page. There may or not be a sexual attraction between you. It could just be in your head; wishful thinking. Or if there is indeed a mutual attraction, then again I fault him for his own laxity as well. They seem like a dense couple in the sense that women/wives tend to have a stronger intuition and I find it disturbing that his wife hasn’t kicked you out of their social group. Since you lack the decency/hayaa to make a better attempt of at least hiding your interest from his wife…she, too, gets annoyed that you talk about her husband too much. I am surprised that alarm bells haven’t gone off in her head and that she hasn’t put you at a distance. Respect yourself and stop playing the chichori.
He is well respect guy. Prays and follows his faith. Never touched me anyway. I just can’t stop thinking about him. His wife recently keeping me in distance. I think she has an idea i like her husband.