Re: First hungout together
Sister, since you're a Muslim, I'll give you an advice as your brother in Islam.
What you're planning to do might seem harmless, but it is not. You are thinking that you'll be just "hanging out," but remember, Allah Ta'ala will not be pleased with you. You said you are not religious, but that does NOT excuse you from committing sins.
If you know that your going out with him is wrong, then why are you still doing it? It's like knowing that walking in front of a car can get your hurt, but you still do it.
I know many, many people go out on dates and whatnot, including Muslims, but we have to fight our desires in following the wrong path.
When Allah Ta'ala has declared something haram, then how can you so freely go out and commit sins? Don't you feel any fear or shame?
What excuse will you give to Allah on the Judgement Day when He will question you for your sins?
Will you say that just because everyone was sinning, so did I? Remember, you're only responsible for what you did. What others do doesn't affect you at all.
Please, my sincere advice is to avoid interaction with this boy, because he is a stranger to you and you to him. Why don't you make friends with females Muslimahs and hang out with them? I know this will be really hard for you, since you've been with him for 3 years (which is very wrong), but you MUST fight the desires. It's shaytaan fooling you into thinking this is all acceptable.
It's never too late to start obeying Allah, as long as you're alive. No one knows when they might be taken away from this world, so please ask for forgiveness and come back to Allah. He is always there waiting for His creations to ask for forgiveness from Him.
May Allah Ta'ala forgive you and guide you to the Straight Path.