Re: Feeling Devastated/Broken
Terrible, terrible, terrible. If I was in your place, I would be seeking answers too although I know its better to move on. In our culture I think depression is categorized as some sort of pagalpan. I don't understand that. Depression can be treated.
One of my second cousin's mom had a VERY bad post partum depression. She ran away from home leaving two babies behind. She used to get fits and used to hit people. It was really really bad. Her husband was very supportive throughout the whole thing. He used to take her to doctors but because of her constantly running away from home her treatment just became really long. Everyone told the husband to remarry because Islam gives you permssion to remarry if your spouse is this ill. He refused. It went on for years .. maybe 12-15 years. Her kids were raised by other family members but her husband refused to leave his wife. He stood strong and now after all these years she is very much normal (she still has some episodes ... but very rare). She is getting her masters. So I think in your case your husband had all the options to keep you and your baby with him and still address all the issues but he chose to leave you both and have a better life himself. You need to be strong for your daughter.
And one more thing I would like to add is that just because someone says you are suffering from depression and keeps saying that constantly doesn't make them right. When one of my cousin got divorced she was forced to sign papers saying that she is mentally ill. She refused because she wasn't. She is perfect. The ex did all the drama so that the court grants him easy custody of their baby just in case he wanted to keep the baby and had the right to remarry under "your wife is mentally unstable so you can remarry." There are a lot of people who will try to prove that you are not capable enough of fullfilling your responsibilites so they could be proved right. Unless some well qualified, renowned doctor (which in no way is related to your ex), diagnosis you, you are not suffering from anything.