while some huge files are being downloaded to my pc i decided to bore u guys once again with a long post 
muhahaha
hmmm
so like these days im kinda in a dilemma coz like
hmmm i always dress modestly like jaise typical larkyaan karti haen pakistan meinā¦in fact on the conservative side coz i dont wear sleeveless and jeans waghera here and always take dupatta properly and so on, i dont even like wearing half sleeves that much, siraf shaadyon waghera pe
actually my dadYal is very conservative, dada jee mashallah is very very religiousā¦most ladies do chaadar and i do too when i go thereā¦nanyaal is also kinda conservative, syeds, and one of my nanas was a pirā¦my immediate family is āliberalā compared to both my dadyaal and nanyaalā¦aur mein toh khairā¦ 
sharam ani chahiye mujhay 
hmm..so like pichlay dino i was going to office and coming back alone on taxis and akele saRak pe chalna hota tha, taxi mein bethna hota tha etc, so i used to take dupatta on my head and then office mein bhee somehow the dupatta also stayed on my head
abā¦i have got a car hehe .. so like ab i drive by myself but theres not that NEED to have dupatta on head anymore..i mean its nice but like phirr bhee aisee koi ZAROORAT nai hae dupatta sar pe na loon toh itna ajeeb nai feel hota
so like do teen dafa mein socheya ke ab sar pe dupatta na loonā¦coz like aik toh i dont have the saleeka to take the dupatta properly i mean dupatta kaheen aur hota hae mein kaheen aur poori jhalli lag rai hoti hoon jus gives a messy impression ā¦ and if i wear it with clips toh mere dupatton mein holes ho jayein ge
if i dont do dupatta on head then like i can style my hair or something so it would look more neat and give a more professional look lol
us ke ilawa agar mein ne boht arsay tak lena churu kar dya toh it will be something permanent so abhee kuch maheenay hi huay haen and i shud take it off now if i have to
meri friends pak mein jo haen woh aadhi sar pe dupatta karti haen aadhi nai karti lekin wasie all dress modestly aik do haen jo jeans bhee pehnti hae sleeveless bhee
almost everyday i think bas aaj office sar pe dupatta nai pehn k jana but phir pata nai kyun i think k i belong to such a religious family and i shud kamazkam usi baat ka khayal rakh loonā¦and after all its a nayk kaam then why shudnt i
ghar walon se poochti hoon toh kehte haen tumhari marziā¦friends bhee yai kehti haenā¦dostein kuch kehti haen tum pe suit karta hae kuch kehti haen kyun khamakha syapa paal rai ho
so abhee tak toh i am wearing it on my headā¦but not sure if this will be a permanent thing or notā¦hmmm
) mera bas mood ho raha tha thread kholne ka aur ye sab likhne ka 
mere chehre pe suit nai karta i think smack
(sisterly platonic and NET hug hehe) oye where have u been ??? I kasam se pichaly dino have been thinking where the HECK is ravage? balkay i even searched ur posts and saw u had posted in religion section heheh
gimme access right now warna muj se bura koi nai ho ga 