Don't you find cousin marriages awkward?

Yes, I had the same kinds of problems. I didn't tell any non-Pakistani that I was married off to my cousin. I told non-Pakistanis that I had met someone myself and that he was someone outside the family. Only years later I could tell them the truth, that he was really my cousin and that it was arranged.

And only now have I finally managed to stop regarding my cousins as brothers. I was difficult to change that view of my cousins, because all my life I was raised with that notion, that cousins are like your own brothers and sisters, so it took me years to stop seeing them as brothers and sisters and only now I've really been able to see them as only cousins and nothing more. Now the incest feeling is completely gone. Since I stopped regarding my cousins as brothers, there is nothing like incest in my life anymore. The marriage I had seems less awkward. But still not nice.

well all ur answers are told in Quran itself. read the Quran and see the people with which nikah is permissible. well marrying cousins is not awkward, but the awkward is the thinking of people and parents who just say and want to marry their children in only family and not out of family as they are not muslims or so.

other reason to marry in cousins is that people had saught their family members and know everything about them that which type of people they are. but out of family its difficult to talk about the good and bad families and in doing so it also takes more time.

so thats the reason. but yes this thinking of only marrying in cousins and family is against Islam and is awkward as if only the family members are good muslims and other are not.

and this also creates tensions and brutal behaviour within cousins against each other.