Personally.. I'd feel very uncomfortable when it comes to cousin marriage.. I would never marry my cousin.. I really have respect for people who are married to their cousins.. I have nothing against cousin marriage.. It's just something I wouldnt do..
I know some pakistani girls over here in Holland who went to Pakistan and married their cousin.. And when they came back, their gorey friends started asking "How you guys meet and stuff.. How did he propose.. " These girls started making things up.. as in "we met at the mall and he asked my number and that's where it started.. We started dating.. Long distance relationship.. etc etc.."
I could never do that.. But this isnt the reason why I wouldnt do it.. I just dont feel comfortable with the idea of marrying my cousin.. cousins who I've alwayz seen as brother and friend.. I want to leave it like that.. I know Im not able to switch my mind and heart from cousin/bhai mode into husband mode..
I know this girl who married her cousin.. His name was Ali.. and everyone called him Ali bhai.. She got married to him.. and after marriage she still called him Ali bhai a few times by mistake..:CareBear: It took her a while cut off the bhai part..
Yes, I had the same kinds of problems. I didn't tell any non-Pakistani that I was married off to my cousin. I told non-Pakistanis that I had met someone myself and that he was someone outside the family. Only years later I could tell them the truth, that he was really my cousin and that it was arranged.
And only now have I finally managed to stop regarding my cousins as brothers. I was difficult to change that view of my cousins, because all my life I was raised with that notion, that cousins are like your own brothers and sisters, so it took me years to stop seeing them as brothers and sisters and only now I've really been able to see them as only cousins and nothing more. Now the incest feeling is completely gone. Since I stopped regarding my cousins as brothers, there is nothing like incest in my life anymore. The marriage I had seems less awkward. But still not nice.