You know, I'm finally coming to terms with what happened in my life. I used to think about it sometimes as incest. Now I stopped doing that. I don't see my marriage as incest anymore, I stopped seeing him finally as a brother. I'm just telling myself that a cousin is a cousin and not a brother. Now it really is working and I don't see it as incest anymore or as awkward anymore.
I was thinking today about the better things in my family instead of focusing on the negative things and I realise that some of the marriages in my family of our family members marrying our other family members did turn out ok, some of them are actually happy. I think the difference is that some of them weren't forced, but wanted the marriage. But what I'm still against is forced marriages. If it's someone in the family, or someone outside the family doesn't matter, what matters is if the bride and groom both want to marry each other.