Don't you find cousin marriages awkward?

That's the first time I hear something negative involving a younger husband.

Then Allah knows what to do. You know what, I'll just let each day come and whatever it brings, then I'll deal with that. I don't know what to think that about now.

I do try to move on. But sometimes I still get sad over some things which made me more sad. I've been angry with my own brothers, I have two, for a long time, because I was angry with my ex-husband, because he was like a brother so I was angry with my own brothers as well, sometimes they did something that angered me, but at times they didn't pay much attention to what was going on and didn't do anything, didn't sometimes even know everything happening in the family, but still I would be angry for nothing at them, just because they were brothers, that's it.

Nowadays, I do try to solve some problems, like trying not to be angry with my own brothers and stop thinking my marriage was like marrying my brother and it being incest like marriage, I try to think about it only as a cousin marriage and I try not to think of my cousins as brothers any more. I really do try. I still do think it's weird to marry a cousin, but I'm trying to get rid of the idea that it's like a brother and an incest like marriage. I'm trying to solve many issues.