Difficulty with daily life

[diwana]

Re: Difficulty with daily life

@Red_Ruby

Hello everyone.

As some of u may be aware, im married and have a child. I am very depressed over certain issues in my relationship. My husband has this controlling aspect to him and after being with him for nearly 10 years, im starting to lose my own personality.

I lost my father in very difficult circumstances and i am still dealing with the loss, so im starting to feel very depressed, like in a trance all day. i cant release myself from this. im am completely lost without my dad and i dont have anyone that i can honestly and openly speak to. and this has in return started to affect my health. i have lost alot of weight and i am starting to go into depression. i dont like talking to my family becasue the loss has hit them hard aswell and all i end up doing is being their shoulder to cry on.

back to my first issue, so im down as it is, and my husband has an issue with what i wear (so on my way back from work i put another longer jacket on to cover myself up) although im covered enough anyway, or if i go into a shop and he is waiting outside, i will be running around like a headless chicken cos if i take a little too long he becomes awkward with me and the whole day is ruined. What really got me down was i had to stay at work a little late, big job i had to do, and i called him and he made it so awkward for me i ended up walking out of work. instead of sayin ok deal with it and we’ll talk when i get home, he said go and hand ur notice in. i was so sickened that he made the stress so much worse that i walked out of work.

Normally i just get on with it, to avoid awkwardness, but last nite i completly lost all respect for him. i have so much to deal with and he adds to the stress. Today i am still fuming, but more than that i feel like im going into a black hole.

how can i deal with all the problems and refrain myself from going into a hole. im so sick of everything

You seem to be suffering from serious depression.

You need treatment as it is said before.

Your husband may have some issues but your depression (from sad loss of your father ILWIR) may be making you exaggerating some situations.