Inna lilahi wa inna alaihi rajioon.
Extremely sorry to hear of u're loss, dealing with death isn't eay..be it a friend or family. I lost my best friend in a terrible car crash and it took me a long long time to recover.
I gained strength from a lady that comes to the dialysis unit and who lost her 11 yr old daughter the previous day. She was composed and kept repeating under her breath "We belong to God and to him we shall return".. it was heartbreaking.