Re: conservative hubby
Don’t let your parents treat you like a diy project. You turned out the way you are because of the way they raised you. You aren’t going to do a 180 and turn into the perfect Pakistani daughter just because you’re married. That only happens in dramas and soaps not in real life.
At 20 I sure as hell wasn’t ready to get married and neither were you. Your parents made the mistake of thinking marriage is a cure for all the flaws they see in you. But you’re also not a child now and you can make your own decisions. I think you know what you need to do instead of prolonging it forever.
Before making a decision just do one thing and that is to pray two nafal and say a little prayer for yourself and the decision that you’re about to make so you know you’re making the right decison. I know it’s weird that I’m saying this to someone who isn’t keen on religion but at 16 I was also a hardcore atheist (I had to Google how to pray when I was going for an umrah, it was that bad) so I get that it’s mega difficult to even do one sajda but sometimes leaving the decision to an unknown entity is easier. Just think of it as all the pressure on your shoulders to make a decision so vital to to your life being placed on another. Now it’s their responsibility to help you choose.