Being kaali pakistani

[queen_24]

Re: Being kaali pakistani

@ganxta_girLie

Heres my story,
I have been called African because im too kali for them and i have low self esteem now compared to when i was a kid because strangely nobody has called me kaali or anything when i was a kid even though i was lot more kaali as a kid..but i was a really confident kid , i could speak well and ppl would be impressed and told my mum that i have a good “tarbiyatt”.but strangely as i grew up many ppl told me that im really dark and at the same time many guys wanted to date with me and found me goodlooking (Including pakistani/indian, many guys from other nationalities) i believe its cause im tall and i was blessed with pretty features but you know what pakistani ppl (aunties and uncles and mostly girls and some guys too who loves gora rang) never looked at my features all they see is my dark skin thats it..for the reference im totally brown and i cant even understand what am i in MAC shades if i use NC40 it looks dark on me even though i thought im around NC45. I’m soon to be married, im engaged to a man who loves me madly and his mum didnt had any objection of me being kaali just that she told her relatives that the girl is with “pakka rang”..she treats me nicely as for now but there are times she says “shaadi ka lengha lena ho to woh rang lena jo aap par acha lagey” by that i feel like if shes pointing at my dark skin and want me to know every colour wont suit me…I dont know how many times i would be told indirectly or directly from my husbands family or rishtedaar or friends about my colour. Im sick of this mentality even though im quite fashionable and i carry myself well. but nothing helps…being kaali makes me feel that im the ugliest person in the world i need my confidence back which i use to have in my childhood…now i cant even talk to ppl properly cus it makes me feel theyr just looking at my colour THATS IT.and honestly i dont feel happy at all if any guy likes me or found me attractive i just dont care about them..i just want these aunties or girls to not call me kaali or make fun of me now i dont even wana get married as ill be moving out to London(after shaadi) and when i went there some yrs ago some girls and even some kids made fun of my colour..and a friend of mine recently told me that the pakistani girls in London wont be friends with you if your kaali because thats what happend with her cousin and shes facing some severe depression…i feel these ppl would just kill me or ill fall into serious illness cus i think too much of thist and i dont know what to do i go paranoid just cus of my colour!

I am sorry but seriously, I dont know WHAT kind of people, you’ve been surrounded by all of your life.. who are ing disgusting!!
this doesnt happen at all, nor in Pakistan.. atleast I haven’t seen! Your friend is just scaring you..
you can not specify them that what pakistani think and what others.. its all about a person!! his/her bull t hinking!

be confident.. seroiusly, if you start noticing all this stuff, you’ll turn mad.. just care about your to-be-hubby!! I read your story but NOT in a single line, found that your husband is having a problem with that!!
since, both of you have to spend the life.. be calm and happy! you shouldn’t be caring about the disgusting world.. where “YOUR WORLD” loves you! He is happy with you.. so make your life beautiful and ignore the confused people!! Yeah! I call them confused and pity them!! so should you!!