Re: At my breaking point, I hate my mother.
Please read my post again. My mom did not raise me by herself, I was raised by her family and maids and my father. She was never around for anything, school, sports, to talk, for anything at all. As a baby, I was left with my aunt to be taken care of, if I got sick, it was the same thing. There is a reason why I wrote this post explaining how much I resent her. It stemmed from somewhere, don’t you think? Who would want to despise their own mother?
“When u were a kid, either you wanted or not she payed attention towards you, hold you in her arms, loved you, adored you, and now she came at this stage where she is expecting the same attention, love from you. So is it too much for you to give it her to back?”
Umm, actually, I have no memories of my mother ever holding me or adoring me or anything of that sort. Instead, it was quite the opposite. I don’t EVER remember my mother coming to hug me or talk to me or just sitting with me to ask how my day was. Not a single time. Why? Because she was never around. And if she was, it was always about how other people’s kids were better, blah blah. She is the reason I always have lacked self esteem because even as a 9 year old, I was told by her how my friends were so much prettier than me and how dark and ugly I was. When I first got my periods, as a responsible mother, she should have spoken to me and explain things. Instead, it was my aunt who I went to and she told my mom to talk to me about these things. My mother in return told her to just tell me herself and that was it. Hard to believe but yes, there are mothers in this world who are detached and negligent towards their own children.