I guess I don't put enough emotion in my post, sorry about that. I really can't say I like him, or hate him. I really have only met him a few times, and I can't really make a decision based on that... I don't know him very well, so I have no idea! Lol, he could be anything for all I know. Can I do it without my family finding out?
Well, marrying a cousin doesn't necessarily guarantee a happy marriage or a faithful spouse for that matter.
Also, marrying a guy who loves you doesn't necessarily guarantee that you will also develop romantic feelings for him. What happens if you don't develop such feelings? You're trapped in a marriage that is not mutual.
It's good that you've borrowed some time for yourself. You say you're unsure about whether you want to marry him. Okay...in that case...consider getting to know him. And somehow....get his email address. Or consider telling your parents that you and him should bond before the wedding next year, and so you'd like to give him your email address. And just talk to him, get to know him. And understand that if you end up not liking him.....tell him about your feelings.....and stand firm on your decision to not marry him. (if you don't like him). But get to know him.