@icicle1 - yup , thanks for explaining to all the people that read these forums and have severe downies. I am a bit taken back by some of right wing responses, but not surprised none the less. We all come from different backgrounds, expectations, and upbrinings…it’s only natural everyone will have a different opinion of my story… but I hate to break it you people living in bollywood… people live life, and do “****” (not ranting to you icicle). Some people “get” this, that the past is the past, and I’m trying to “learn” from my mistakes… not to perpetually live in sin, and on that note, I have gone as far to even leaving my home country, aka my “comfort zone” to reform.
The girl could very well be playing me. Some excellent points made by people. I don’t think this is Karma. Will explain later why. Hormones? Maybe? But don’t we all get that from time to time.
Yes, marriage is for a lifetime, and at the same time, if things went “positive”, and she agreed, it would have probably been a year or so before any momentum took place. My family did the whole “rush mode” thing, to gauge if the girl was being genuinely interested. In front of them, she is not, but behind their back – to me – There is a different story. I’m not stupid as much as I’m an optimist…and when you are in a vulnerable position, all you want to do is hope.
I almost feel like Gatsby…seeing the green light…falling for Daisy…meanwhile Daisy is just living in her own world.
I will just focus on me, and not worry too much about the cousin, for I am in the GCC, and she is in Pakistan… I can’t control this situation, so why fret over a situation one has no control over?
One of my good friends in the United States told me this:
“Dude, why the **** are you fretting over some dumb girl, that you have no control over? You need to stop thinking about her and live your life. Think about it, Did Alexander The Great cry over some girl? **** no, he wrote his own destiny. He conquered the world, lived, and died. When people told him, he couldn’t do something, he said, ‘oh? I can’t?’ - And did that **** anyways. You need to be like Alexander and write your own destiny, not fret over some situation you have no control over”