Re: American Pakistani, and I want to marry my 1st Cousin in Pakistan…OMG
I am certainly venting… I won’t deny that… writing is therapeutic.
Yeah, I kind of picked up on that too… i’ve been in LD relationships in the past, and usually you tend to talk with one another for hours on end.. and what not… This is the exact opposite. If anything i’ve learned is…if you chase too hard…the other person just becomes disinterested in you… (If they were ever truly interested in the first place).
I do have baggage…and albeit I did have a job in the states, I wasn’t in a happy place…And thats part of the reason why I don’t want to go back…I fear I could easily relapse.
I’ve been doing the single thing since May of 2012… I have no problem being single… i just never anticipated I could have fallen for my cousin so hard. It just happened so quick… I was holding back…and I felt like she was the one I could share myself with… and I guess the reality of it is… I was just wrong.
I just need to do me, stack some cash… someone mentioned just treat her like a side project…and just go with the flow.