am i being selfish?

Then drop her like hot potatoe!

No bride should be feeling this tensed.

You plan your stuff, just don't tell her. Then once planning, date, invites all are done, then just "pass" the message to her that so and so day will be your dholki....WITHOUT any considerations of her thinking on a joint event.

If she mentions anything, then say, well this is how things got planned out... then cut the conversation, and run...... lol