Re: Alot on my plate... need your help
Wow.. that does sound like a lot.. I would have to agree with hitchki so I am not gonna type another one of the same post again but she is right. Is there any way you can delay the marriage until you feel ready?
I can relate to how you feel about your father. Mine hasn't passed away but he is going to be far away for a few years with very few phone calls and its tearing me up inside that we might never be the same again( i will probably be married and living with my husband by the time he is back). I know "chatting" and typing isn't much comfort but if you ever need to talk or need a virtual shoulder to cry on, I am always here and you can't use me and abuse me cuz im a girl ;)
Have you tried salat? Have you tried reading the Quran with tafseer? I know for a fact that a lot of people find peace and purpose when they read it and follow it with heart. I know that in my difficult times, Quran is the only thng that holds me together.
Anyways, I will pray for you. InshAllah your marriage will be a strong long and happy one. And may Allah shower you with His blessings, may you find the hapiness and peace that you have been searching for and find a lifelong friend and a soulmate in your husband.