Skittlez I would recommend u see a professional, seems like u still haven't got over ur first lov, and have lost a lot of self respect along the way. U need some time alone to think things through thoroughly, an evaluate ur past if u haven't already done so. Does ur fiance know about ur anxieties? if not mayb its a good idea to talk to him, he will have to be ur biggest rock to help u get over this hard time......