AoA,
GS is a beautiful place where I have spent years. So much is the addiction that maybe thats what i used to think about while driving. I must admist, I have almost grown up here.
I also realize that at times i have been quite rude to many, for which i do apologise. Sometimes, my posts have earned harsh criticisms and were seem as extreme. I do agree that they were sometimes showing opinions out of the ordinary.
I however feel that those opinions just came naturally. Sometimes those emotions went overboard. Yes one must learn to control emotions. I am weak at that. I know i can be and should be a much better human being if i learn to control my emotions and what i say and write.
I am not too religious - i think. No beard ( i have a thousand explanations for it), do not pray fajr mostly - can’t wake up early. and honestly speaking my worst problem is anger. How can i even be a good person if i can’t control my anger.
I am passionate about various things including Pakistan. I literally went into big arguments with many Indians over their insulting Pakistan. I guess that was childish. I now come to realize that it was pointless. Yes those were my nationalist feelings i grew up with. I now know nationalism always leads to selfishness which leads to hatred. There goes the universal brotherhood and equality of mankind in the drain.
Yes now i like indians too. :)They are also humans like us. Infact from a nationalism point of view they were our brothers as Indians only 60 years back. All humans are children of one father, than why these divisions.
Now the main point.
Putting aside my love for this place where i learnt so many new things and met so many nice people, i do have my reservations.
Freedom must have a limit. Many nice people and well educated people end being such wierd one ( in my opinion - no hard feelings) that one feels frustrated. Nobody is perfect but sometimes mods ignore very serious and insulting posts. Maybe this is the norm of ‘modern’ Pakistan, where even the respect of mosques, Islamic symbols, hijab, niqab and what not are easily laughed and mocked at. Now agian, let me remind you these are my opinions, so you ofcourse can disagree.
Over the years things have deteriorated to such a level that those things which we (majority of Muslims and Pakistanis) have loved and guarded for so long, our love for the deen of nature etc.
I am sure many got my point. There has to be a limit to things. There are limits even in civilized educated western societies.
Not only one feels sad at whats said unchecked, but also a sadness at the level of ignorance people have about their religion. I am not saying i am a scholar, but i what little i know, i can feel the proplems.
I hav eno doubts in saying, the lal masjid massacre really has opened my eyes about pur governemnt and those supporting it here on GS. I myslef used to love our President. WHat he has done is taking us towards destruction day by day. Its hard to see my Pakistan bleeding like that. All i can do is pray for it and our people. May Allah show us the way. It sure wasn’t something small that happened.
Well, i just wanted to leave gupshup and maybe i should have just quietly left. However, i though it was necessary to convey my apologies to those who got hurt in any way due to my writings. I wouldn’t have felt lighter if i hadn’t written this.
My sincere prayers and goodwill for everyone here.
Allah Hafiz and good bye.
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) have sought refuge and nothing is sacred.
even word impossible contains I M POSSIBLE 
so not making ny thread. but every one accept my appologiez, i never mean to hurt ny one. :))