Re: after a long time......
respect Nisa. InshaAllah I hope it will work out for you in a positive way and may Allah (swt) grant you Shivah and patience
If I may share,
Suffering is a gift. In it is hidden Mercy. - Rumi
When the world pushes you to your knees, you are in the perfect position to pray (read it somehwhere :D )
Forgive him who wrongs you,
join him who cuts you off,
do good to him who does evil to you,
and speak the truth even if it be against yourself.
-Inscripted in Prophet Muhammad (saw) His sword.