Re: 30 year old Pakistani women
Khud hii = self
Khudii = ego
is she’r meN lafz “Khudii” aayaa hai na k “Khud hii”:
maiN ne AligaRh Muslim University ek ek saalaanah jalse meN apne ek daraaz-qad [tall] dost per is she’r ko yuN likhaa thaa jis par be-intihaa daad bhii mili thii: 
Khud hii ko kar baland itnaa k har parvaaz se pahle
parinde tujh se Khud poochheN, “bataa, oopar fazaa kia hai?” 