Arghh I neeeed to get this out of my system...
Our family has had its fair share of troubles over the last 6-7 years, my mum and dad have always been the centre of arguments, blamed for things they havent done, accused of saying things they never said but they never let their problems affect us kids. We were always encouraged to maintain the same relationships with our cousins, which I did. I treat them like my brothers and sisters and still do but they've changed. I'm no longer included in things, stuff is hidden from me and my family. My cousin got married, everyone was emailed wedding pictures...I wasn't. My cousin got engaged everyone was informed...I wasn't. On wednesday it was my cousins birthday, I got him a present, rang him and wished him but wasn't invited to come over...why? Becuase they were having a birthday party and didn't want my family there. Despite all of this, the s*** they give me, my behaviour towards them hasnt changed one bit. If theyre gonna treat me like a stranger, why do I still care for these b****es? When they're in trouble I'm the first person they call, instead of turning them away I help them. But why? Why do I keep going back to them when they treat me like an outsider? I'm so annoyed right now, with them and myself. They keep these secrets from me, thinking I wont find out...but I do. And it hurts, it really does. How can I stop caring about them...?
behen! aajkal baahir k log khandan waalon se ziada achay aur sagay hotay hn. khandan walay to ab saamp aur bichu ki tarah dung martay hn. hona ye chahiye k ap khandan me se jo apki care kerta hai uskay sath bohot acha raho, aur jo nahe kerta usay khuda hafiz and get lost kaho usi tarah jis tarah wo apse kertay hn. ap koi un pe dependent to nahe ho ya mang ker to nahe khatay. humari family me bhi same app wala system hai aur im the eldest cousin in my family and same was done with us. and now i said get lost to my such family members and cousins and started to dvelop new friends from outside. and believe me they are much more good and honest to me as compared to my own family cousins.
aaj khandan bhi sirf daulat ko hi dekhtay hn jiskay paas daulat aa gai to sb uskay pichay pichay aur agar nahe ayi to koi usay ghaas tk nahe dalta.
ab mujhse meri khala aur chachi ne bhi isi liay milna bund ker diya hai bcoz wo baat baat pe tanz aur jhagrda kerti theen aur mein unki zuban mein unko karay kararay jwab deta tha.
:)