WHY DID I RISK...?

so much it is to be taken truthfully
even the lies,
even the teary eyes and
that clearly show… when looked at sincerely
all that the mind holds in
some memories
all what never came about
some good times
all that there is dismaying

  • your lessons in disappointment.

    knowing what i know
    about you
    knowing what i see
    you don’t share
    clearly,
    the good or the bad
    together with what is being tried
    so honestly at your end, but,
    at times, we have nothing to defend
    do we?
    only if the lie was never spoken
    only if the truth was held on to
    only if no feelings were withheld

    perhaps in planning or not previewing,
    contemplating or subduing
    caring to be cautious, overly indulgent
    selfishly so, too
    for not making the mistakes, suddenly
    you mistook again
    & you keep making the mistakes still again

    but, one of your characteristics
    your ill confidence in you
    could not be overlooked.
    it was pointed out to you.
    it was said to you, done for you!
    peace, comfort, care & understanding
    were all offered to you.
    a good friend, who could have been yours,
    you forget, who did take the time to know you
    but begot your failure, your confused detachment

    & then, crossed you feel,
    why did i risk
    saying this to you?

you’ve been wandering
& you wonder, why?

Dushwari