There are some sins i have committed in my past which I want to ask Allah to forgive me for, I have been trying as I have recently got back into praying 5 times a day for the past 10 days or so and trying to be the best muslim I can be.
But when I sit and pray and ask for forgiveness I dont know why I just dont feel truly sorry…I WANT to be truly sorry and I want Allah to forgive me but I just dont feel it coming out my heart, its like im shy infront of Allah or maybe my shame is holding me back I dont know :S
I recently got back into praying because i felt quite unhappy with many aspects of my life and things just werent going right for me at all, Alhamdulillah since getting back into praying so many of my anxieties have gone away and before my eyes things are getting back on track!
But there are some things I have done in the past which i really want to ask forgiveness for and i just cant bring myself to truly and openly to say sorry to Allah…maybe i dont understand the greatness of my past sins or i dont know.
do lots of istaghfaar. You dont have to feel sorry to ask for forgiveness. Just the fact that you knew you did something wrong and asking for forgiveness is enough
There are some sins i have committed in my past which I want to ask Allah to forgive me for, I have been trying as I have recently got back into praying 5 times a day for the past 10 days or so and trying to be the best muslim I can be.
But when I sit and pray and ask for forgiveness I dont know why I just dont feel truly sorry....I WANT to be truly sorry and I want Allah to forgive me but I just dont feel it coming out my heart, its like im shy infront of Allah or maybe my shame is holding me back I dont know :S
I recently got back into praying because i felt quite unhappy with many aspects of my life and things just werent going right for me at all, Alhamdulillah since getting back into praying so many of my anxieties have gone away and before my eyes things are getting back on track!
But there are some things I have done in the past which i really want to ask forgiveness for and i just cant bring myself to truly and openly to say sorry to Allah....maybe i dont understand the greatness of my past sins or i dont know.
HELP!
**it's natural...Allah looks at your heart for sincerity and intentions. i always tell this my nephew and nieces in all their whatever big or small problems relating to worldly affairs as well as matters of life in hereafter:
have a pure intention, do your best and leave the rest to Allah. the chips will fall where Allah may deem fit for you. :)
just concentrate and keep doing what you have already been doing. May Allah help you and guide you...aameen :)**
If you can't ask for forgiveness earnestly then at least thank Allah (SWT) for giving you an opportunity to turn to Him in forgiveness ... for sure the one who realises his mistake has been given Mercy because that realisation is the door of forgiveness being brought to that person. You'll see you should be able to thank and give shukr to Allah (SWT) for being guided and being given tawfiq to practice being a good Muslim.
The best repentance is not guilt, but abstinence from the sin never doing it again ... guilt is needed to make sincere amends, but trust in Allah's (SWT) Mercy is needed to move on in life. No more guilt ... we should never let our thoughts give us poor opinions of Allah's (SWT) Mercy.
I haven't really repeated these sins. I wasn't really a good Muslim at 17-18 at all, but then I decided to be a good person and I am glad Allah gave me the chance to do so.
However I have never since these past few days repented for my sins ( as far as i remember ).
I feel a bit confused. For some reason I feel I should be crying and begging infront of Allah. But I dont feel that, I pray for forgiveness but I feel like its not coming from a sincere place :S
I cant explain sorry if i sound confused and not making sense.
I feel like im sorry in my head but not in my heart.......
