Re: what’s happening to me ?
Pray to God and not trade with God. Thank Him for everything he has blessed you with. Remind yourself of your weaknesses, helplessness, and relativity in front of God who is Absolute, All Powerful & All Beautiful.
If you believe you have a just need then you may try the following:
[9:75] And there are those of them who made a covenant with Allah: If He give us out of His grace, we will certainly give alms and we will certainly be of the good.
…and always keep the following in mind;
[2:216] … But you may dislike something which is good for you, and you may like something which is bad for you. GOD knows while you do not know"