so today at work the manager told me that he is not happy with my work and my irregular routine..i was expecting it…i have been doing my task well but since im irregular it make things difficult..he has been very happy with my work previously n i was doing well but i dunt know y i cant deliver the same quality of work now..
in my head im confuse i cant decide wat is buggin me so much…therez a sadness inside me..im not happy..i have failed myself..this is not me n i want to be myself…
something in my head tells me to take a break..stay at home..give myself time..pray..and try to build my life alll over again…everyoone i meet asks me wat have i done to myself n y am i so depressed…my family is worried about me…n i feel i need to move away from all this for sometime…
when i think wats best for myself i know i shud quit…i need sometiime to reconnect with ALlah and build my faith again…thats the only reason for all my misries…n while im going thru this 9-5 work cycle i cant take time out to pray and give myself time…
i feel im missing the balance in my life..and to get that balance back i need a break and make a fresh start..
but quitting job means i wont be able to give money at home…they are not depending on it..but i know it made things easierr..
,I have been following your posts and I think you are suffering from a depressive disorder.
Go see a psychiatrist as soon as possible. Depression isn't just a 'feeling' it's an illness caused by chemical imbalances in your brain. I would seek advice and probably be put on medication. Don't delay!
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^ that is the best advice :k:
so today at work the manager told me that he is not happy with my work and my irregular routine..i was expecting it...i have been doing my task well but since im irregular it make things difficult..he has been very happy with my work previously n i was doing well but i dunt know y i cant deliver the same quality of work now.. in my head im confuse i cant decide wat is buggin me so much...therez a sadness inside me..im not happy..i have failed myself..this is not me n i want to be myself... something in my head tells me to take a break..stay at home..give myself time..pray..and try to build my life alll over again...everyoone i meet asks me wat have i done to myself n y am i so depressed...my family is worried about me...n i feel i need to move away from all this for sometime... when i think wats best for myself i know i shud quit...i need sometiime to reconnect with ALlah and build my faith again...thats the only reason for all my misries...n while im going thru this 9-5 work cycle i cant take time out to pray and give myself time... i feel im missing the balance in my life..and to get that balance back i need a break and make a fresh start.. but quitting job means i wont be able to give money at home...they are not depending on it..but i know it made things easierr..
what has happened to you dear??y r u becoming so lifeless...i really feel sorry for u..and yeah take a break...sit at home..if possible change ur environmnt for a dy or so..go to ur khala aur any other aunt's place for a week..it really will help u...inshAllah...
if u continue being in the same env,u will be more deprsse..get out of it fo sometime...
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i feel like crying now...i dunt want to be like this...so lifeless..hopeless and miserable...i want an END TO IT...
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Can you not take some time off from work, like a career break? that way you will not have to leave your work for good and you can have some time to yourself to think things through.
I dont know if your work place have the career break scheme where you can take from 1-6months off unpaid and still keep your job, but it would be beneficial for you to take some time out.
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that is exactly what im thinking about...but i dnt think they have any such scheme
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How about taking annual leave for a month?
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Lostangel, Initiator said it ... it could be a serious harmones related illness .. please see a doctor asap.
After that , my sincere suggestion is that if its getting that depressing , then leave your job and do things that make you happy. Sometimes a different routine, being able to do things on your own really help us ...
Most people will advise you not to leave your job , they are right as well , but better to leave your employer happy then when you have pissed them off .. coz alot of times when you explain them the real reason of leaving , and if they are happy with your work and you , they might offer you a job in the future as well ... *but first talk to them if they can give you an unpaid leave .... *
Can you afford to go on a little holiday? do that .. it will refresh you ... life isnt easy for any of us ... but you cant really lose control over life ... you have no option but live it through... so please give yourself a break and move away from the current routine .. see if that makes life clearer for you ...
,I have been following your posts and I think you are suffering from a depressive disorder.
Go see a psychiatrist as soon as possible. Depression isn't just a 'feeling' it's an illness caused by chemical imbalances in your brain. I would seek advice and probably be put on medication. Don't delay!
I Agree.
It looks like you are not going something you like. If you can afford to take break, sometimes it do wonders. This sometimes also happen due to strict routine in life. Just take a break and dont make schedule for your days. Live couple of weeks without schedule ....
so today at work the manager told me that he is not happy with my work and my irregular routine..i was expecting it...i have been doing my task well but since im irregular it make things difficult..he has been very happy with my work previously n i was doing well but i dunt know y i cant deliver the same quality of work now.. in my head im confuse i cant decide wat is buggin me so much...therez a sadness inside me..im not happy..i have failed myself..this is not me n i want to be myself... something in my head tells me to take a break..stay at home..give myself time..pray..and try to build my life alll over again...everyoone i meet asks me wat have i done to myself n y am i so depressed...my family is worried about me...n i feel i need to move away from all this for sometime... when i think wats best for myself i know i shud quit...i need sometiime to reconnect with ALlah and build my faith again...thats the only reason for all my misries...n while im going thru this 9-5 work cycle i cant take time out to pray and give myself time... i feel im missing the balance in my life..and to get that balance back i need a break and make a fresh start.. but quitting job means i wont be able to give money at home...they are not depending on it..but i know it made things easierr..
i feel like crying now...i dunt want to be like this...so lifeless..hopeless and miserable...i want an END TO IT...
stop caring about little things too much.
I have read few of you posts, you got into this sticky mantle state because of your personality type.
I don't think you yet have energy to bounce back. I think its going to get worse before it start getting better.
Do your self a fav do some thing real wild. Smoke some weed or get drunk or some thing.
just break this vicious sphere you are in.
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so i told my manger that i need a break..either i can quit or i can take a month off...but he said NO BREAK or resign...therez a lot of work n u cant go anywhere..somehow he has convinced me to stay..n so has my friend..i feel a lill better dunno y
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Till you or some one close learn what you going through Its not going to get better.
You too will know after you are through.
It could be painful though.
so i told my manger that i need a break..either i can quit or i can take a month off...but he said NO BREAK or resign...therez a lot of work n u cant go anywhere..somehow he has convinced me to stay..n so has my friend..i feel a lill better dunno y
hmmm if you are feeling better it means , the routine isnt really an issue ... perhaps you just want to get more appreciation for what you do ... can you not look for another job in your free time and change companies ... its going to take time , but starting afresh , with new people, new goals , new challenges might also give you a boost... just an option..
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CB I could not agree with you more, BUT this chick need some serious force/support over the long run.
Comforting her wont be a good idea, she see little things as huge mountains.
Family have no clue what she is going through. Chick does not see bigger picture of life.
She is vulnerable.
Chick need to rough her self up a little.
She is lucky she found GS to share her discomfort with life, that would help a little.
But again she needs force.
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yes Jimmy i agree with you completely .... I guesswe can give her a starting point and support her through the next steps ... I hope she feels better... I still cant emphasize enough for her to see her doctor regards this depression.
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If she keeps her journal here and you girls keep doing what you do best(support) she will be fine.
But this is just virtual world what If she stop logging in?
I hope she does not.
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don't take antidepressents whatever you do.
