what is wrong with me ? (if u think this is some kind of joke then refrain from read

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Re: what is wrong with me ? (if u think this is some kind of joke then refrain from

@tigerlilly

i am 35 yrs old lady.i have been married for 11 yrs and have 2 kids.lately since the past few yrs I’m experiencing some kind of transition in myself.
my background is that i had always been that chic , extremely fashionable person who always died for jewels ,branded clothes, always the follower of movie stars,could not go out if my shoes did not match my dress,my wedding was totally choreographed…most expensive designer hired etc etc
lately i have been hearing junaid jamsheds bayans(he used to perform at kinnird college a concert and i was a die hard fan of him)since he left music …just to hear his melodious voice i started listening to his naats,then taking one step ahead the quran.
whats gone wrong is that i have no desire left for this world… i hate ostentatioun,women running after brands,lavish wedding and i hate it when i see people so much fascinated for money and running after money.i feel i want nothing in this world.sometimes there r times that if i feel that something is a luxury to me y don’t i give it to someone for whom this might be a necessity.
BUTTTTTTT the ques is that many people around me think** i have gone insane ,they say u r going through depression…insan ko apni zaat sey bhi pyar karna chahiye….bure waqt kay liye joro…yeh tumhe kia ho gia hai**
i have literally stopped socialising with people as they always call money making success and they think im a loser aur yeh mehnat se bachne ka bahana ha aur main bahut unprogressive hu
friends what would u call this depression ya khuda ne mera dil badal dia ha

The scenario you mentioned simply means you have been unstable before and maybe irrational in your act now..despite having a very inquisitive mind.

Islam does not want people to give away money without having financial sense and only asks people 2.5% of leftover money as charity. Anything beyond is not necessary but is allowed.

**Being selfish is an evil act but even being irrationally selfless is not such a great virtue.
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