Re: what is wrong with me ? (if u think this is some kind of joke then refrain from
Dear tigerlilly, you are not alone who is feeling down there are millions of people if not billions in the word who feel the same. What you are saying about yourself is sign of depression. nearly half of europe goes through it and more of that takes place in the rest of the world.
The question is why it happens? It happens because just as we have physical strength so we have mental strength up to a certain level. When we are under stress and pressure and threshold is reached the strength gives way to weakness ie we no longer can handle this pressure. Life as we know is a very difficult thing to go through because humans are not very strong to begin with and need a lot of love, care and respect from each other. People who form a bond with each other on this basis have better chance because they distribute life pressure between themselves but people who are cut off from each other fall apart at first hurdle.
Due to negative competition based mindset and attitude we let ourselves down very badly. We try to put down anyone else thinking we are better than anybody else. There comes a time when we feel bad about all this when we are no longer better than others ie our strength is gone and we need others but we have driven them away and now we cannot go back to them due to feeling ashamed. The social break down among humans has serious consequences because humans are emotional animals and if they do not keep connection with others sensibly then it becomes a problem.
If you read my posts and you have the ability to understand them then you will realise very soon how wrongly we humans are living our lives and thereby we are draining our strengths ignorantly and deliberately. Had our parents educated themselves better and passed on right way of dealing with life issues then this need not to happen.
If you look at youtube videos see how many people go to wrong people for solutions of their problems expecting wrong things of them. If you want a better life find some people who look at life the right way. Through their help you can bounce back. The best guidance is from the quran only but the quran needs to be understood properly so that it makes you a reliable person upon which others could depend. This is what Allah wants us to be ie live for each other not for putting each other down. That is way of kufaar not muslimeen.
When you help others and they help you, there is no more win and lose situation but win win situation. I will advise that you listen to darse quran by allaama ghulam ahmed parwez if you can understand urdu and once you understand the concept of islam he is telling us then listen to others like dr israr ahmed, tariq jamil, dr tahir qadri, dr ghulam hassan adeel, javed ghamdi etc. You will come to your own conclusion as to what is true concept of islam and once you know it then you are bound to come out of depression. It is because you will have discovered by then the wrong steps that you have taken that brought you where you are and by knowing how to start again you will find the balance way of life. This is what repentance and reform is all about in quranic context. It is like you start out a journey without having right goal in your mind and then you just bounce from place to place knowing not what you are doing and why. You walk that way for as long as you can then start worrying where you are really heading when time has passed and you become a bit tired and you are nowhere. That is when you look for some goal or destination and start all over again.
Don’t worry at all just get on with finding out the answers you are looking for by studying the world in which we live and the quran. Very soon it all will start making sense. Listen to junaid jamshed singing maulana altaaf hussain haali’s analysis of ummah.
regards and all the best.