what is wrong with me ? (if u think this is some kind of joke then refrain from read

[psyah]

Re: what is wrong with me ? (if u think this is some kind of joke then refrain from

@tigerlilly

well thanky psyah when u said it could b masking a problem yes i have seen a rough tide but still dont know whether this path is cause of that or just change in myself
it is just that nothing attracts me i can never go shopping and say wow… whatever i buy is the stuff that is out of necessity not that it tempted me contrary to my earlier personality…
i used to find sexy clothes very attractive now even if i find someone else wearing sleeveless i find it actually ugly
all the time whatever i do at the back of my mind i say what will allah think?.. how can i please him ?how can i b near him? but the sad part is im not near him he still has kept me at a distance i wonder when i will b special in his eyes
if there is anyone out there also feeling the same plz contact me psya who is ur sheikh and what is the purpose of a sheikh

Peace tigerlilly

I can say nothing about how you are feeling … but I only have your words to go by … It appears to me that although you have taken this step … from the words you are using and the concern it is giving you - enough to start a thread on it - seems that "you are doing what you think is right - but you are finding it difficult and somewhat of a ‘grey’ experience … If this is the case then you need to find more than obedience in your life … You need to work towards finding contentment with Allah (SWT) and bring on a persona of tranquility … This change should not be a burden on you …

A Shaykh is a guide who can help with your spiritual journey … It appears you are making steps to refine your “actions” but if the heart is not tempered with the right fortifications then it is hard to sustain such a lifestyle. I can PM you inshaAllah, if you wish for further details on this matter …