…? inspired by someone? impressed by someone? wanna BE like them? love them so will do it for them? HATE them so will do it to turn them down? destroy them?
what gives u energy to get up, do a certain thing, which either mind OR body is telling that it cant? examples are leaving bed in the middle of cozy sleep, to something AS opposite as going to gym.. where u will be tortured to rip ur muscles and burn the body.. or slap someone, being so angry that physically moving ur body and performing the action without thinking…or kiss someone, so in love, that couldnt stay away ?
i’ve lived two lives.. one upto an incident in 2004 and second live basically after that.. in the second one, i’ve started feeling this ENERGY in me .. its not entire positive energy, there are some negative parts about it.. but now situation is that once i get a thought in my head, that i have to do it, i will do it.. i wouldnt be needing inspiration, motivation from someone, any stories, moral boost or anything.. i will get extremely focused, and devoted to that task.. be it work, finding gift for someone, moving people, staying up for 2 days, going THROUGH saddest portions of life..waking up in middle of sleep to go to gym..saying NO to junk food, NOT having desserts after a SOOTHING meal..
basically, being strong..
but all these positive things(energy) are coming from INSIDE.. not from finding things about others or by influence of information…
before someone says, no i dont wanna be those standup motivational speakers
it's kind of like a part of you has woken up....and now it's in control where previously this was not the case.
isn't it a wonderful feeling when this positive energy from within is in charge?
and strength is it's own reward......every time you question what you are getting from it, you realize that you don't need a thing......
I get my inspiration from seeing others that are struggling like I am. I see their resolve and determination to overcome their obstacles. I see them persevere in arenas they don't belong. I see them look in the face of adversity and say, "Give me all you can. I'm not running away."
its hard.. cuz sometimes, its hard to actually be on the other side of equation of life.. with ALL THAT energy, destructive thoughts cross your mind, u have to be your OWN judge.. YOU have to draw the line, and decide for yourself.. and in few cases, for others around u..
sometimes its hard to ‘harness’ this energy, (sometimes aggretion) and use it for positive/creative/rewarding purposes..
hats off to u .. i’m very proud at u u wouldnt give up, or give in, i like that ma’am
My desire to keep going, and my potential which peaks to no limits. Also, not to mention my exceptionally charming good looks, that give the package a rather more eye candyish appeal.
k4: so WHY is that desire there? failure is not an option -theory or u LIKE the challenges?
The desire is perequisite to potential in my books. I have the potential so I don't let it go waste. I think ahead, so I won't let even a lil grasping of knowledge go by me without getting through to me first.
I guess you can say I'm very ambitious, forward thinking and self reliable type of person who has the ability to set priorities straight instead of gleaming around for what eyecandy there is around town or watching a bollywood movie to set myself in dreams and desires which lace at the most impossible.
i like that .. :k: i dont get ANYTHING in my way if my head is in the direction to get something..
i just wish it had happend earlier.. but life’s learnings were planned for a specific time.. so it did..
movies only take u away into a dreamland.. it feels GOOD though to be in the la la land..
however, i have fears.. and it takes MORE courage to admit those fears, and work with them.. fear of losing, breaking, speed, heights, water to name a few.. and i work with them every day… eventually will come a point where i will overcome them
being stuck (physically and maybe mentally) better part of this year and not being able to leave that state of place/mind.
Knowing what I can have, what i’ve had, and wat i do have
i need a nap
before someone says, no i dont wanna be those standup motivational speakers
hats off to u .. i’m very proud at u 
u wouldnt give up, or give in, i like that ma’am 
