I didn’t understand the underlined part 
Actually…I know too much muhabbat is VERY DANGEROUS for health…I have already been through that…zaada ghussa tho khabhi nahi aayi…all that came was an indifference to what he was doing…no more hurt, no more tears…trust me, he had to do a lot to get me back…but even now…he knows he doesn’t have me a 100%
Sometimes…I feel guys dnt understand things any other way…till they feel they are losing you…