lol.. yaa I dont like other peopel interfering or pushing me into believeing wht they believe.. I am trying to pray regularly but I feel discouraged because I can not read arabic and it is hard to memorize it… but practice makes perfect. I have not been putting too much makeup on.. and my skin feels so much better. I am wearing more modest clothing and feel a little wierd and dressed down but am saving alot of my precious time rather than spending 30 minutes daily in deciding what to wear. Also, I feel this urge to wear hijab (I am not hijabi.. yet)… like to trips to the grocery store I started wearing hijab.. I feel like wearing it to college but I will start probably this semester.. I do not like attention on myself and I do not want too many people to ask questions.
However, I do not want to give up nailpolish.. its been a week since I saw color on my nails.. my nails look better though because before they were stained due to not regularly wearing base coat.. now they are back to their natural color.. I do not really care anymore about nailpolish on my nails.. but I truly loveeeee my feet (i think they are one of my best features) and I just hateeee not seeing polish on them.. I know it seems like a petty issue but it really is a big deal to me…
Idk… Allah knows best. I just hope I dont go to hell for wearing nailpolish.. as I ordered the water permeable kind from online… my intensions are in the right place… but I know my MIl will make an issue when i start wearing the halaal nailpolish again