Re: traveling
He doesn’t want you to go anywhere far from him and yet when you’re near him…he controls you then as well. The sad thing is that on one hand you admit that his behavior bothers you and at other times you try to downplay it.
My advice would be that you take a trip…go to England with your dad. Some time apart and a change in scenery will help you sort out your feelings. You don’t have to see this as running away from your problems. You can even see this vacation as a part of the problem-solving process…because it will help you relax and this in turn can help with organizing your thoughts. While on vacation…please don’t talk to your boyfriend or email him every hour. I think that would be counterproductive. A person who doesn’t respect your need for privacy/peace…doesn’t respect you.
Sometimes when you get a way from a person…you realize how much more at peace you are now and how stressed you were when you were so involved with them. Go on the vacation and if that’s what you decide to do…make the most of it cuz it’s an expensive trip. You don’t want to waste it by talking to your bf every five minutes and putting up with his whining and threats and immature/insecure behavior.
***I remember a cousin once told me that beware the rishta which pressures you to agree for a marriage to happen soon…and beware the rishta that is too wishy-washy. Cuz they are extremes and often times something is up. He’s placing a lot of pressure on you and I don’t get a good feeling about it. You have the right to go on a vacation and that vacation has NOTHING to do with the issue of marriage so it’s senseless for him to prevent you from going. Think about it…there’s no connection between the two things. Your boyfriend has his issues…but your own low self-esteem is part of the problem. If you had more respect for yourself…you’d want a guy who respects you at all times…not a guy who pressures you to have sex, treats you like crap after you give in, and then pressures you to stay near him. If it’s the “attention” that you want, you could wait to get it from a guy who will treat you better. Go on that vacation and clear your head…it may make you realize what you’ve been missing all this while.