no, you cant be running from your self any longer!
while you talk of all the faith,
losing your faith is not fun, is it?
trying to be given guarantees,
being doubtful is not fun, is it?
you took something invaluable,
tearing it apart & bleeding yourself,
some guilty blood
oh, you took yourself so wrong!
…
no, it does not get better, for being made worse!
no, you cant simply make excuses no more
smoke-screened serenity, tranquility or peace,
distorted illusions of your insecurities
lies, which you’ve been lying to yourself,
were your bait, you knew it,
also, they were your snares, you did not!
…
yes, they hurt you so badly now,
for that what you did not see…
because you did not believe,
& you did not feel & you did not care to.
…
yes, for yourself to be with someone,
who you could truly fall back on, or hold on to,
but, you… remained - truly-
residual of your transference!
you only had your one beloved…your ego
which you could not name until now,
that you cannot blame or fault
because its you and not you,
that you could not confront -
neither for being near it or for being afar!
do yourself a favor, ask yourself,
why did you give yourself,
such a bad memory scar?
Dushwari
note: transference is reacting to a person in the present as though that person was in one’s past. there is a lot of emotional and personal damage that it does to those who suffer from it. hope is that they can recognize that in themselves…