Re: To keep trying or to let go
The passion or this serious need to see him and his face, the way he looks at me, I think that look would make any woman feel drop dead gorgeous, that did help me feel good and it seriously brought out the most wonderful change in me. I was dead inside before but then after I started to see him and talk to him I feel like i’m on top the world in his presence. It’s like how prayer feels for someone, a total and beautiful connection with Allah. I feel the same way when I see him. But I’m a bit older than him, we’re of different subcultures, and language so there are quite a few cons. Now i’m in a dilemma of whether I could completely cut contact and move on or give him my phone number and see where this goes. It feels like it has an 85-90% failure rate. Staying practical and moving on just doesn’t appeal to me right now for fear of losing an opportunity.
He’s just so special that I just can’t imagine not being able to see him again or of seeing him look at anothe woman like that. He can sense how I feel and bring out positive emotions in me just by smiling. Other men just disappear in the background. If we’re in public and we’re talking with others, if I peak at what he’s doing he looks back at me in the most beautiful way…
from what you’ve said here, it’s passion and not desperation. I’m alone and I love it and if it doesn’t work out i’ll be really down but I can hold out til another mr. incredible comes along but being alone is not the reason i’m thinking of pursuing it. He just makes me feel incredible and I haven’t felt that type of connection on a higher level with any man when I look at him. He even did a certification in my professional field because I told him about how much I love it and he got a job so we’ve effected and brought out big, great changes in each other. I just don’t know how serious he is or whether he’s a closeted player