These are just a few quotes of mine that I strongly believe on but then…>read on<
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*A blockbuster movie just focuses on one facet of life and we get really touched by it. But You!! would realize that in a lifetime you have experienced more than a 20 blockbuster movies emotionally, physically and socially. This you will only comprehend when you gauge every part of life, moments of happiness, times of anger and anguish, emotional surges, different phases of life.
Damn!! Our lives are one heck of a blockbuster entertainment for a person/ being that created us, whether HE eats popcorn and soda while watching our extensively fluctuating lives, or Probably just walks out at the interval!!!
As long as it was entertaining!!!*
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*Anything possible/impossible has or will happen to someone, somewhere, so, if its you at the receiving end it shall not bother you. Rather you are a winner, you just paid a great contribution to the creator in balancing out life by sacrificing your own happiness and pleasure. In HIS scheme of things; whether it should have happened to you or not , whether you deserved it or not, Whether you are pious or not, whether you fulfilled your duties or not, whether you prayed ten times a day or not ,whether you ate meat or not, is as unimportant as a chocolate wrapper to you.
I have seen the worst get the best and the best get the worst just to substantiate and justify the term “That’s Life..”*
A few days back a Neurosurgeon while seeing my MRI (Magnetic resonance imaging) said things that I do not want to post here and instructed me to have another MRI with contrast after 20 days. I always thought that mentally and physically I am quite a fit person but the doctors words , body language, and demeanor were so brutal that when I walked out of his office I had a complete psychological collapse I could see people listen to everything but could not comprehend anything, my mind stopped processing information.
What took me 36 years of experiences, education, social interactions to build bit by bit; that is my mind, was crushed just like a china tea cup being smashed on a concrete wall by a few comments of the doctor. Initially i was broken into too many small fragments all at once to be fixed right away and the only remedy I thought right was to remain mute(which is quite difficult for a person like me 
).
At that moment I realized how less of a control I have of my mind and what it really means to believe that we CAN die.
Living in Peshawar I was never bothered by suicide bombings, while a few relatives stayed home all the time I used to boast and say I am not afraid of death, so what! every one has to die. Now I understand sometimes we say things that we really do not believe in.
for example the probability of dieing in a suicide attack in Peshawar is quite high but the markets are still full of people, nevertheless if the angle of death tells you that after exactly 14 days you will be standing in such an such market and will die by a suicide bomber I think those 14 days will be hell for you on earth.
Confirmation of death is much worse to deal with; than death itself.
To cut the long story short I did my second MRI and consulted many other doctors what they said is out of the scope of this thread and secondly its detached to the point I want to make.
1. I really found out how frail life is and how the human mind consciously and subconsciously continuously tries to fool you that you are invincible.
2. We are hard wired to find emotional and social dependance, that’s how we have evolved over million of years. we marry, we have children, our siblings, relatives etc all are there to depend upon in time of happiness or need but to tell you the truth except for parents no one really cares.
We as humans also found out that mere human dependance is not enough we need supernatural assurances and voila! we came up with divine faith. In hard times divine “Faith” gives you faith to fight Godzilla let alone any terminal disease.
3. This point is Pakistan specific: I am amazed that in pakistan people are so frustrated and depressed that they are constantly seeking out other people who are in worse conditions than them. for example If someone comes to know that you are critically ill they will sympathize with you but you would see by their rhetorical questioning that deep down they are getting some sick gratification.
4. The last point that I want to make is that I wrote this thread just for the reason that next time if someone is in a position like me (God forbid) they should not loose control of their mind rather collect them selves believe that death is inevitable every one will die, some early, some late. You should not die mentally while you are living because Every day is a new day given to you today enjoy every second till you kick the bucket.
Every human on this planet has a ticking time bomb in them, which will go off one day or the other, so just relax and enjoy till the time the bomb goes off and wish the bomb should go off without you knowing how many seconds are left.
Wishing you all a good and healthy life.
