Five years ago I was in high school, in 9th grade and was quite optimistic about my career and future life. I had lots of friends back then and had their support which I couldn't really get from my family because of some problems.
In-between those five years things in my family and personal life didn't go so well and I fell sick before entering university. Well, I couldn't get into the university I had planned to go to. Hmmm, everything just got messed up. Since then I'm not doing so good in studies. I'm not very optimistic about my career either. I've not been in contact with many of my old friends. Though, some things in my personal life changed for better but I can also say that after five years later I'm probably gonna be in a bigger mess than what I am in right now. Allah rahem kare..:)
The title of the post reminds me of Phil Collins song:
How can I just let you walk away,
Just let you leave with out a trace.
When I stand here takin' every breath, with you.
You're the only one who really knew me at all.
How can you just walk away from me,
when all I can do is watch you leave.
'Cause we shared the laughter and the pain,
and even shared the tears.
You're the only one who really knew me at all.
So take a look at me now,
'cause there's just an empty space.
There's nothing left here to remind me,
just the memory of your face.
So take a look at me now.
There's just an empty space.
And you comin' back to me is against the odd's,
and that's what I've gotta face.
I wish I could just make you turn around,
turn around and see me cry.
There's so much I need to say to you,
so many reasons why.
You're the only one who really knew me at all.
So take a look at me now,
there's just an empty space.
There's nothing left here to remind me,
just the memory of your face.
So take a look at me now,
see there's just an empty space,
but to wait for you is all I can do,
and that's what i've got to face......
take a good look at me now,
'cause i'll still be standin' here........
and you comin' back to me
is against all odd's............
that's a chance i've got to take.
Take a look at me now........
Personally in the last 6 years I have achieved more then I ever though I could but it has been a painful journey full of fun. At the same time one of my most important goals has still remained out of reach. In the end its not the five years that I wonder about but whether if I will be able to use all the resources I have to the best use to make a change for the people around me or will I just let life pass me by :).
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*Originally posted by CurruptAngel: *
Hmmm, everything just got messed up. Since then I'm not doing so good in studies. I'm not very optimistic about my career either. I've not been in contact with many of my old friends. Though, some things in my personal life changed for better but I can also say that after five years later I'm probably gonna be in a bigger mess than what I am in right now. Allah rahem kare..:)
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In_sha_Allah everything will be fine. Sometimes you're in such a mess and especially when it goes on and on and you wonder will I ever get out of this mess? It seems hopeless and then something happens, often unexpected. And everything get's better. You never know what the future brings. Always have hope in your heart. :)
Remember, after rain there is always sunshine. (even if it takes a while before the sun appears, but it will appear in_sha_Allah)
Also I read somewhere that pain, problems bring you closer to God, then you cherish more the good things of life and you realise more how valuable they are. If people have only happiness, they tend to forget God, or somehow they experience religion not as intence as when they are/were in problems.
5 years back I was 16,
in my last year of highschool. I knew daym well what I wanted to do, and was willing to fight for it. I was a big dreamer, and had many many many dreams to follow.
5 years later, things went way the other way then I expected! due to many reasons I screwed my university chances and messed up big time.
but stil Alhamdolillah, WO jis haal me rakhe.
I will graduate in september, and am now looking for a fulltime job. job ke saath saath ghar bhi lene ka iraada haye.
there are many many new dreams, with many new chances to get.
and yes, I do wonder where I will be in some 5 years.
5 years ago I was in medical college.... had the best of friends ...... life was a roller coaster ride .... world just existed to make me happy!!!
Wanted to graduate in first attempt , finish the house job (internship) and do my post graduation ..... lots of crushes , no affairs.
Today........ It seems I exist in another galaxy. Who could have thought I'd come to Ireland ... the land of the dull .... !!! I've got a wonderful man in my life, became a mum.... and got a job .... in what... psychiatry.....!!(who could've predicted that...!!!!) Hoping to work on my post graduation but a lot many things that seemed so important then don't really matter anymore. All in all, the biggest surprises of my life were from myself.
It's been ages since I have been crazy ... but I still have the same old friends... half a world away. that is one life line I don't intend to drop.Five years from now... all i really want to do is to get together with my friends once again and ....... maybe .... go for a walk in the lahore rain.
Five years ago I was a graduating senior at a beautiful university in the Midwest USA. I had plans of going back to Pakistan and helping my dad with his business, getting married to some Punjabi girl and raising six kids. Then I decided to stick around for a little party and some practical experience.
Five years later I am still partying, still working and now I have no plans of going back to Pakistan.
In the coming five years I plan to stop partying, marry an Eastern European blonde girl, raise six kids and retire somewhere in Caribbean.
five years ago I considered myself a cool looking stud now I check those pictuers I was just a gublo bublo bacha. Maybe after another five years I might be in a same posttion..who know :p..let me be happy for now.
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*Originally posted by gooni_2000: *
Some thread....!
5 years ago I was in medical college.... had the best of friends ...... life was a roller coaster ride .... world just existed to make me happy!!!
Wanted to graduate in first attempt , finish the house job (internship) and do my post graduation ..... lots of crushes , no affairs.
Today........ It seems I exist in another galaxy. Who could have thought I'd come to Ireland ... the land of the dull .... !!! I've got a wonderful man in my life, became a mum.... and got a job .... in what... psychiatry.....!!(who could've predicted that...!!!!) Hoping to work on my post graduation but a lot many things that seemed so important then don't really matter anymore. All in all, the biggest surprises of my life were from myself.
It's been ages since I have been crazy ... but I still have the same old friends... half a world away. that is one life line I don't intend to drop.Five years from now... all i really want to do is to get together with my friends once again and ....... maybe .... go for a walk in the lahore rain.
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:-) that was really nice. reminded me a lot about my best friend for some reason. welcome back to GS, hadn't seen you post in a while. I really enjoy your posts.
Hmm, thanks for your advice. Well it is hard to hope for good when everything and everyone around you is making you hopeless and helpless…I wish you could understand what I just said. Anyways you’re right, we should always have hope…I’m gonna try to concentrate on your advice(although i’ve already tried it 1000 times before:)) and see if things really do change…
Well it is hard to hope for good when everything and everyone around you is making you hopeless and helpless...I wish you could understand what I just said.
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Believe me, I know where you're coming from. I've lived like that for past 5/6 years. Only few months ago light is shining through again, al_hamdulillah. You never know how the tides change. Sometimes it takes years to get out of your problems, just when you think it couldn't get worse, something happens. I know it sounds unbelievable, but I truly believe that somewhere in the future, you will be allright, in_sha_allah. :)
When I was young I wanted to be a doctor and now I'm a doctors secretary. Half of my dreams have been realised the rest will come true after i've topped off the doctor and taken her place.
I don’t dream…