My first job was in Pakistan that was right after my Graduation and I was unmarried and in search of Life Partner.
Found job in Technical side of Radio(Regional Radio Station), found some time on Mic for live Radio talk shows also involved in interaction with listeners.
Being a young and hunter of course I was really excited being appreciated for my Talk shows and Sound.
Among the audiences few were girls who were my fans and it was an interesting part for me.
Where I was working that is completely cordoned off for Females to go out for shopping , bazaar etc.
Hijab is strictly observed etc and can understand the overall environment, but still education is there and educated people are there so found considerable links.
Among those fans was a very good letter writer , who wrote much about my programs and expressed more interest in , call us and spoke to me some times , keeping in view the trends in the area I forbid her to call us , as that could be proved dangerous for us both.
But she were persistent , thinking my loneliness , I thought it is the one going to be my “Partner” , so I told her , ok , we will interact each others , you should be clear that
“in this region where we are living and have grown in , I would only interact with you for, whether we can make up”
I gave her my all contacts, home no. , cell no.(although cell does not work there) and email addresses too(which are brought in use very rare).
I spoke to my mother about this girl and told her to see her , I am finding her very intelligent, know her father too but don’t know her age , physic etc , if you find her ok then ask her hand for me.
Once she had called to our home and spoke to sisters too as anonymous caller.
My mother told, I would first speak to her mother on phone so to know the parents view regarding her.
so she called them , Her parents told my mother , she is only in Class 10 now and we want her to study so we cannot talk about her in this regards.
Mom reported me this info.
I was really shocked to know she is that young, thought “How she is making that much mature comments about my or other programs (may be some one was assisting her)?”, could not find reply to this query.
Next time she called me and i told her
“Please do not call me again, and expect no call from my side because the purpose I was keeping with you, is not possible to meet”
“Rishthey Asma pay bunthey hain” , I got engaged with another girl (my wife now) , one day I sent compliments to my fiancée through the sky waves of one Radio channel , my wife and this girl live in the same city , this girl thought these compliments are for me (in our society people don’t tell girl/ladies name publically).
Khair , I went to Pakistan , get married and was with my wife, appeared for one Radio interview , she came to know , and she called me , I spoke to her , she told “I received your compliments via …. Radio, thank you for that …. And ………. “ , I told her , “ those compliments were not for you , but my wife (that time fiancée) , as we were speaking on phone and had contact so just for to surprise her I dedicated one song one song to her with my compliments” ,
“So you got married?”, “did not you know, her younger sister is only one year senior than you , Ms…. , let me give their no. to you and Next time be careful , do not call me again , I had told you , you should have understand it that time”
I continued “and you also speak to my wife, you may know her, so I am giving your no. to her (my wife) “
My wife called her and spoke to her attesting my marriage with her and my wife was succeeded in recovering my letter with her.
I had told this entire story to my wife; she had understood all this and my stand regarding the entire story.
Some time this all things occupy my mind, (not the girl as I have not even seen her only have spoke to her for some time in very decent way , have read her letters etc and have wrote all the ups and downs in my diary) , and I feel guilty as I think, “She were too young and all the responsibility comes to me”
My feelings ceases to its satisfaction when I see “I have not given her any ASRA”.
How do you see all this?
Am I really guilty?
