Re: some advice please-feeling lost :(
Thanks Chipkali
I dont know why i want him back! the thing is we got along sooooooooooo welll, we really had chemistry, and he admits this too.
I have been reflecting alot and both times when he decided he wanted to not be with me was when i became withdrawn, demanding and low in self esteem and seeking constant reassurance at the same time as him having his own issues.
Now for the most part everything is good between us, very good.
Im not going to give up on something because of a couple of hard patches, yes he needs some time away from me and im going to respect that and i need some time off too maybe.
I will work on healing myself and its so so hard because of how much we spend together.
But i did stop looking after myself and looking good and buying new clothes and i will start all that again.
I am going to take it a step at a time, like today im going to beautify, but i will see him today as we are doing night shift together. He is coming back to uni from home and we will probably travel to hospital together, now in my little heart there is a little hope that after going home he has reflected and missed me and everything will be ok BUT i have to tell myself this is NOT going to happen.
Ahhhh
You know what i have told you guys all the bad parts but we had majority good times, and i have a small feeling things can be salvaged from our time together on friday night.
I might be wrong and i might be stupid but like people have said before well you didnt love him enough to fight for him, well i do and i am going to take the risk and try and have him back. Yes it might be too littlle too late but what can i do!
Not by stalking him but being the girl who he fell in love in the first place and giving what he wants, space but support as a friend from me. Im probably going to come back crying on here in a few days time but....i want to take the risk :S
Lets see what happens!