sweety, only TiMe will heal your wounds..and only with time you will be able to tell if you guys will get back together or not.
but time is a great healer of wounds. trust me..it doesn<t feel like that now..but after soem time you will just automatically start taking interest and being happy in other things in your life.
and another thing..drink herbal tea to help yourself fall asleep On TiMe..and MaKe ur self EaT! ti si really important, if you dont you will just feel worse. i know you dont feel like it right now but snack every two hours if you are not eating properly..
with time inshallah slowly ur hurt will fade and you will feel better..
p.s- and dont blame urself too much..sometimes we dont know what we should do or what is right and what is wrong..agir woh understanding hota to woh iss baat ko samajta..
maybe some things are meant to happen in our kismat..shaihd is me koi behthri ho..maybe it helped you learn soemthing and maybe you will get some other happiness which willbe better for you in the long run..