Re: some advice please-feeling lost 
Alvena
Sometimes we have to have to do things which may not necessarily want to do but feel obligated to do or it may be easier to let things go. It may not necessarily be the right thing but it is an alternative.
I am sure you will miss his friendship:hugz: but hopefully things will fall into perspective soon for you.
You have identified yourself you need to focus on you. You are young. Enjoy it whilst it lasts.
Implementation is the hardest part.