11-11-1933
Bursa Prison
My one and only!
Your last letter says:
"My head is throbbing,
my heart is stunned!"
You say:
"If they hang you,
if I lose you,
I'll die!"
You'll live, my dear--
my memory will vanish like black smoke in the wind.
Of course you'll live, red-haired lady of my heart:
in the twentieth century
grief lasts
at most a year.
- Nazim Hikmet
He was a famous Turkish poet. I think he was in prison because of his communist inclinations and spent nearly two decades there. As far as I know, he did not die in prison. If you are into poetry, read his, especially "Things I didn't know I Loved," "Hymn to Life," and "Letters from a Man in Solitary".
Ps. Lydia, we all go through this. I don't think many people end up with the first person they love. Mostly those people just become bitter sweet memories and you do think about them now and then, that's human nature. But the intensity of those feelings die. I personally think life is all the more beautiful for having loved and been loved and lucky are those people who have experienced the full gamut of emotions life has to offer, though it might feel very ****ty while you are going through them.
The charm of the frist one can't be same with any one else.
Don't try to forget because one way or another that person made you a better person and always brought best out of you. You cant forget someone special like that can you?
And " You've built a whole life with someone; one night, you're in bed with them, you have children with this person but somehow, your mind wanders to him. " You will think about that other person no doubt about that. What if he was here what would he do?
With the first one you draw a sketch of your married life and after marriage you fill the colors. If that doesnt work out you try to color with the different person but without a sketch and every day you try to reflect on that sketch.....
i think i got a little tooooooo philisophical there.... sorry
My first love was a hispanic boy that I had been eyeing since the 2nd grade - lo and behold he was in my 5th grade class. Then some little choonchaa went and told him "Hey, I think that geeky girl has a crush on you", which sent me running to ammi's car at the car-pick up lane. Ah the horror.
Nevertheless, I went on to middle school and proceeded to fall in love with 5 other boys all at the same time.
I don't remember ever having a 'FIRST LOVE' or anything of that sort.. rather i remember during the 4th grade a classmate(who used to live in the neighborhood) decided to write something like a love letter still remember something he wrote: I love the way you wear your pigtails blah blah somethign like that..
Anywayz since it was underneath the door mat in the morning my father got a hold of it and asked me what it was.. Ohhhhhhhhhhh the tormentt i went through. i remember i started crying 2 lolz and then the next day went to my teacher showed it to her, she just kinda didn't care and i just ripped it up and threw it away...
Dunno whatever happened to that kid ahhh but must be quite a character now :D
And have you?? Is it really possible to do so again? I used to think naa… but im startin to think it is possible to love more than one person in ur lifetime.. :halo:
