tell you what my gender is? or just leave it? does it make any difference or you wouldnt care less whatever it is?:hinna:
i am feeling so depressed at the moment and ab koi matlab nai dikhta kuch me bi:hinna: so isiliye agar i thought ke gender ka kaam tamam karde:hinna:
ab i dont know should i disclose it or rather just continue like this?:hinna:
i myself would prefer to keep my mouth shut, just wanted to know yr views?
:hinna:life is filled with pain and endless sufferings:crying:
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awwwwwwwwwwwww…chwubby chweeks 
what is wrong??? y are you so sad 
Waise I dnt care what you are…but it would be just fun to know what you are…what ever you are…ull always be “chwubby chweeks” to me 
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thanks aaliyah hun, those words mean alot…i dnt really knw how shud i explain it to u…it’s always been like this, the reality has already struck me mind but as time goes the reality keeps on hitting me afresh:hinna: and the more i hate love, the more my love for fsk keeps growing:hinna:
i dont even knw why i opened this thread and talking abt fsk:teary2:
or maybe it’s tht i opened this id in the first place just to try push fsk to the back of my mind…and maybe the reason i kept my gender hidden was partly for fsk:hinna:
tell me why are ppl itne daghaabaaz is dunya me:crying:
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ohhhhhh…hun plssss…dnt be sad yaar I know how you feel…sometimes life is like this…ur still young…and things will be fine after a while…every1 goes through heart ache…its a part of life…
I know it sounds sooo ridiculous and patronizing for u right now…blive me i have been there…and keep going there too 
I guess sometimes we go through rough patches in life so that when we are gifted with good times and loving ppl…we knoe how to appreciate them…that is what i tell myself anyways to deal with all the rubbish that keeps happening 
and who is fsk??? is this person on GS?
keep going there matlab?
with the exception of my family members, i have never been ‘blessed’ with such good people, or rather should i say i have been gifted with so many people like this..only that our story alwasy ends with a betrayal/bharoosa toring:hinna:
fsk is the first love of my life:wub:, the only person with whom i shared so much, the one who guided me for 2yrs, the only one who never told me things which most ppl did(well tht’s only for those 2yrs:hinna:) only person i respected so much and thought was special..i just dnt knw what went wrong:hinna:…we had a totally different relationship though, no love bf/gf ka lafra, lekin jab se ye pyaar beech me aagay tab se musibat shuru hogayi, tht’s why i hate love:mad2:
owh talking abt fsk makes my depression go away:blush:
(woh gs pe nai he aur na hi jante he:D warna u think i’d have written all this?)
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^:cb:
so you two were best friends and now ur in love with him/her??? hmmmm…
so did u tell fsk about it…ya nahi? or is this person no more a part of ur life.
Dnt hate love!!! U can never run from it…aur humesha when you least expect it, that is when it bites u on the nose…and u dnt even see it coming 
Ofcoz…you’ll always meet ppl who break ur trust and betray you…but ull also meet ppl who will always be there for you…it might take time for them to come into ur life…but they do…and then you will be very happy and blessed to have these ppl in ur life.
well so far i havent met any, and if they do come then i hope they come and stay forever, and come soon, coz now is when i need one:hinna:
no we were not friends or anything..we didnt refer to eachother like that…just gham/dukh ke saathi…we didnt have a name for our relation, but there was this perfect understandin btwn us, and after fsk’s entry in my life i thought i had met that one person i could trust completely, i even learnt urdu unke saath baat karne ke liye:blush:, but unho ne hume ghalat sabit kardiya:crying:…fsk started loving me, i didnt tell fsk abt my feelings…baad me jab bataya to didnt believe me…then patch up hua, larai, saath…larai…saath…larai…saath…went on until now:hinna:…lekin ab we dont talk at all…
…and now i am awara si dukhi si bhatakti wi aatma:crying:
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it’s been 4.5yrs since we have known eachother now:blush:
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SN.. kia hua.. sab kheriat to hai na..
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kya bataye:hinna: bus kuch poorani si nayi nayi si baat ka saamna hua aaj:hinna:
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arey yaar.. dont worry.. be happy
4 days ki zindagi main bhee banda udaas ho jaye to phir kia reh jaye gi zindagi.. kher.. have some BBQ grasshoppers, you’d feel much better 
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^wish it was tht easy khush rehna, what makes it difficult is that am not home, so i dont have ppl around me:hinna:
oh and bbq’d grasshopers yaha nai milte, they sell them back home:bummer:…woh bi fresh:D
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dnt wrry chwubby cheeks…sab kuch dheere dheere teekh ho jayenge
waise gender kya ho??? 
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:hinna: Ahh aik waqat tha main bhi sab se yehi poch rahi thi. Ab agar tum secert rakh sakty ya sakti hu tu rakhu no prob mujhy koi farq nahi perta but agar tumhara dil chahta hai dissclose kerny ko tu koi nahi rok sakta:P
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Bobby McFerrin ka baath sunno: “Don’t Worry, Be Happy”
Inshallah everything will work out for the best. 
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jo bhi ho humain kya 
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Bhai Bata Do yah nah ho tum par koi baychara time zaya “loss” karay and in the end when u give him ur number and said HELLO “mardana awaz” Baycharay ka susu khata ho jay 
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**^ Becharey Larky, Larkion se bat ke kitney shoqeen hoty hain:hehe:
Mera masla yehi tha ke her koi Janab, Bhai, Muhtram kehta tha aur mian cheenbajabeen ke mian koi tu Muhtrma kahu 
So mujh se na raha giya ke main aik Female hon not a male itni bizti nahi berdasht hoti bar bar male samjhu:wink:
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u talk like a girl anyway 
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Kis ko keh rahy hu:aq: