Its all about taking a risk now...... I can get married but what if its still the same then Ive ruined not only mine but his life too.... I can give 100% effort to make things work but whats the whole point if Im not satisfied from the core of my heart! so dont you think its better backing off now then later?
until u dont admit to urself that u r actually married u wont get anywhere...u say 'i can get married'...darling u r married!!!!!
Y didn u not think of all this before..
I know sum1 who went thru the same situation as u, and shes happily married 2day...u havent given the wedding a chance..it seems u had the nikah and came back...until ruksathi happens u wont know how things will go..
im only here to advise...u have 2 take the ultimate decision...