call it something else then.
why anyone would force themselves to sleep with someone they feel this strongly against (enough that it will devastate them) is beyond me. but that's certainly not rape, even though they might have similar feelings afterward.
I find it highly annoying that anything sexually uncomfortable is desribed as "rape" by the eager-martyrs of GS.
Were you held down, powerless screaming for help? Was there brutality involved? Were you really that tramatised that you lost your sense of self, turned to self harm and needed councelling? Are you THAT wounded?
If so, then obviously you are either over sensitive, glorifying your "trials" or wrong.
In all three cases I would agree that therapy would be potentially beneficial.